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So I started hitting the bike,and pool. Decided to not do the 1/2 at lonestar in April and do the oly. I have not done a oly distance and I had a late start as I normaly start in second week in Jan. O well it cost half of what the 70.3 does so I'll go and have fun. So training is going good feel like I could do the half but. On April 5th about 3 weeeks from lonestar at 2:30 I'm at school it 5th graders against the teachers in no holes bar soccer match. This was something I was against from the start and said so. I felt like it was something someone could get hurt at,we don't have a flat place to play ect.. so I said no. Well I guess that makes me an ass,so after further review I said I would play,as I don't know jack about soccer so reffing was out. There arent many teachers playing so here we go.We find the flatest place and I put out cones to mark the field and someone brought thier kids goals from home. At about 5 min. into the game I stop turn and start to run after the scrub. this was a compleate stop,I look around and yellat some of the kids a bit and then take off. But instead of taking off I hear this snap crack sound like you were breaking a good size stick.My left leg folds and I go down. When the crack sound happens I have great pain in leg at knee. Im laying on the ground,I just lay there as the pain is bad. After a couple of seconds I roll over and push myself up,I am afraid to look at my leg at first as I thought the bone would be sticking out,the whole school is out and wrapped around our make shift field,500 of them teachers and all. No body comes to help,no body says anything,I thought for sure they would have heard the snap but no. I tell myself that it must not be bad, and don't be a puss so I try to walk it off. The first step I take with my left leg I hits my other leg and I have to reach down and pull my leg and foot around so it is pointed in the direction that Im walking. I can get around but this isn't working It jacked up and theres nothing I can do about it ,its not going away. I go insides and get two large zipp lock bags go to the ice machine and fill them up and go to office prop my leg on top of desk and put bags straight on skin all around knee,I set there until its time to do duty 3:10 still no one says anything. Ice has melted so I ditch it and go outside to do after school duty(putting kids in cars)After duty standing with the last children waiting in front of office I tell my bosses that I have jacked up my knee,one says ya I saw that,the other say I should go to the dr. but doesnt really know what the deal is what to do if you are hurt on the job. I come home and Ice it some more for about a hour,I find a ace wrap around thing with velcro and put it on. I drive to Burleson to put money down on a car for my son and then go to see one of the boys I worked with at boy scouts get his eagle. Came home Iced it some more, took some motrin,and rubbed some DMSO on it rapped it up put a pillow undere it and proped it up and tryed to sleep. Spent most the night talking to my knee,It was very pissed at me. Next day it is black blue,and swollen. I am lucky in the rest of the week, was testing so I got to set around. So on friday I get a call from Austin,Tx. its the claim ajuster for workmans comp. I had filled out a report the next morning after the game. He said that he had got my report and it was a report only, but said it didn't sound like one and that I should go have a Dr. look at it,everyone else said the same thing but I just didn't wont to believe what had happened. I know what was wrong and knew what the Dr. would say. So on monday morning I called the district office and they got me set up right away. Went in saw a PA he took a xray,checked it out and said it was just a sprain and the swelling would go away and he would see me in a week. Week later went back to Dr. saw the Dr. this time and the swelling had not gone down even though I Ice it three times a day.The Dr. looked at xrays did the latchman test(I failed)he wiggles your leg below your knee and if you have a ACL tendon it doesnt wiggle. He give me a shot,gets be a brace and sets me up for a MRI and tells me he is afraid my knee is jacked up. By now its time to go to galvaston for the tri,I go and watch. The next week my MRI report is back and my leg is jacked,fracture tibia,torn ACL and some other stuff. They send me to the surgion,I am afraid of these guys,so he's a nice guy and he allso does triathlon. He tells me he can fix it,I tell him I wont to recondition it,he say thats fine but he will see me in about three weeks. So I do tharapy Its a bummer,the baby steps thing and the people in there are really messed up,and its super depressing. In the mean time I get a letter where the worker comp people wont pay for a good brace. I call them up and it just business,they have thier ways and they do not want to spend anything if they don't have to. Its getting more depressing,my leg is getting stronger but don't have any stability,and never will because I don't have a ACL. So I go back to the surgion guy and say lets fix it,school is out and may be I can be ready when it starts again it will mean starting over whith the tharapy and everthing but if I don't fix it now it will just get worse. I have started having dreams that Im running,running hard up hills and on trails,funny when I was running all the time while I was running I would be day dreaming about sleeping. So I got a couple of weeks to go before I go in for the fix. And the brace guy called and we meet up and he is making me a brace. Seem that if you go for the fix it ,all pretty much pre approved, wild. Guess they know you cant grow ACLS. So thats the story.But what I have learned is if you love something do not risk that on something you don't. And be thankfull for what you have,and don't waste time being down for something you don't.